he comes towards me, looking all exhausted, with a fatigue beyond fear, beyond comfort, beyond himself. I have never seen him like this before, nor will I see him any different. It should be cold here, but with him, comes the full warmth of the sun. With him too, follows a darkness, a confidence in assured destruction. Nothing follows him. An objective nothing. He carries himself with weakness, and I am running to reach him. He has come so far.















Hey,



hey



Carey,



Carey



you’ve made it, Carey



Amon?

It’s okay, it’s okay. i’m here, it’s okay. you’re going to be okay

i’m crying. I haven’t cried, i haven’t felt this much for forever. I don’t care how long it’s been. I’m holding him. Our bodies are pressed together. I know mine is fading, alongside the nothingness he brings. i want to tell him not to apologise. i do not want to control him. he is his own insecure, scared being. his fears are sacred to me. i hold him close.











im. i’m so sorry. im so sorry Amon



it’s alright, it’s all going to be alright



im so sorry. im so so so so so fucking sorry, amon



You’ve come so far, and i know you have nothing to be sorry for. You’ve carried me here, Carey. You’ve brought us both here.











I’ve been so close to you this entire time, Carey, I don’t want you to forget that. I’ve been so close and so near to you. You’ve been looking with every part of you and I will never forget that. Come closer to where you see my body, Carey, and we will try to see each other.



he won’t let go of me. I can feel my body begin to fail, the parts of me that remain are fading into nothing



Carey, i’m going to apologise, and you’re not going to like it















no, amon, no



this is going to be the last time you will feel me. I’ve been missing you. It feels so good to feel reality in my hands again, for I know it’s a reality I share with you. It’s a world we share.

no, amon, please

i need you, amon



and it’s a world we’ll share again. I’m so glad to be with you, forever, Carey. I will give you the power to be free. But I can only let this world, this warmth, let you go.



please, amon,
please



Goodbye, Carey. I will never forget you.



the last angel standing atop the mountain made of ice. i move away from this world. the planets wave at me as i pass them by. i wish they would turn and care for my love, waiting for a new world to begin. i am reclaimed. i am gone. The universe knows his warmth completely